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Today sucked monkey balls

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 11:50:00 GMT

OMG.....AHHHHHHHHH so today i was out shopping with mat danielle and kyle and there all like dont talk to kyle blah blah blah we dont want you two fighting today so im all like whatever i dont have time for this. So when we got to the Bay Center we went to the food court cause danielle had to bribe kyle and mat to come with food...Go figure lol. So after the fat tubs of lard finished their drinks we all went down to Sirens. Well while danielle and i were in there they decided to sit on a bench outside of the store and im all like forget them there fat tubs of lard. So danielle and i continude our shopping and they just sat there and sat thereuntil finally danielle and i left the store. I looked back at kyle and like a retard after i made eye contact with him a turned away he jus sat there like he was brain dead or something. Comtinueing on our shopping danielle and i continued to move from store to store spending most of her money(BTW: i got a shirt out of it). Mat and kyle left i guess after a while of "looking" for us (cause you know they looked so hard being guys and all).but according to danielles mom mat and kyle stopped over like three times which is easy to believe knowing mat (whos a one track minded little boy)so when we were done all of our shopping i phoned my mom and asked to give us a ride home and she did after being late and danielle and i had getto pizza. so we get home to my place and kristina starts going off about how there was thjis sound and she didnt know what it was and she found out it was danielles cell that fell out of her pocket on to my bed that weve been phoning all day. So after all of that i being the smart child that i am decide it would be fun to go to kyles looking for mat and kyle and phone mats house only to find that hes not either of those places. So i ran well walked home and got evans braclets and brought them to him cause hes been buggin me to give them to him for a while now and hes all like so im all like high and im going to go to bad and then i told him that it was only like 7 o'clock. Then e said he knows but hes so tired and to come over tomorrow and i said fine but i was a little hesitent. I finally made my way to danielles finally like a told her i would.....When i got there i walked in the door i got a nastey look from kyle like i did something wrong to him and then i looked im more and i saw mat.....and he did not look happy at all. So we started to arrgue like we do and he blamed me for everything that happened today like i would perposely ditch him but then again it was jus supposed to be me and danielle shopping by ourselves and they came uninvited by me so i felt no remorse for leaving them until i saw kyles face it made me feel so guilty....but it wasnt all my fault i swear! After i got in the fight with mat i left danielles house and went home. When i walked in the door everyone automaticly thought something was wrong but then again something was wrong so they had right to thin it but i jus broke down in tears and i dont know why i mean mats not that big of a deal to me but i just dont know i guess everything just got to me like it wasnt jus today at the mall and mat its been everything else lately. I really havent had anyone to talk too! like i could talk to my mom but its been different with her lately i dont know it feels like our connection isnt as strong as it used to be....It was really awkward today even talking to her about mat and stuff. I feel like im starting to bottle everything up and then loosing it over the littlest thing and then not being able to explain why im so mad. I've been getting like that alot lately but im tired and i think i would be a good idea if i went to sleep considering danielles fallen asleep already...awww she looks so cute..lol

Awkward

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 06:42:41 GMT

So the other night i was...well it was morninglike 4:30 in the morning i decided to write a poem about a dream i had like a week ago. So here you go.....

My Masterpiece

A drugged drink was all it took,
To her where she is now,
Cuffs around her wrists,
Attached to the hanging lights,
Bolts threw her feet,
Planting her feet to the floor,
I feel accomplished.

Every drawer,
I franticly look through,
Each drawer in my path,
Finally at the last drawer,
I have found my weapon on destruction.

Grabbing the vinegar,
I figure hey why not,
Why not cause as much pain as possible,
Sitting down on the chair in front of her,
I contemplated where to cut first.

Finally deciding to do for her voice box.
I use a small pairing knife,
In a saw like motion,
Back and forth, back and forth,
Up and down, up and down,
Innocently I asked are you ok?

Expecting some kind of sound I got nothing,
Not even a whimper,
This wasn’t what I was looking for,
I wanted to cause this girl mass amounts of pain,
So I started pouring vinegar down the large hole.

Imagining what she is going through I hold my throat,
But cup after cup the vinegar kept pouring in,
All of a sudden I could hear faint whimpers,
Almost like cries for help.

Laughing I put the bottle of vinegar down,
Oh dear sunshine I say as I kiss her soft cheek,
The pain has jus begun,
With that I started slicing off chunks of her skin,
Piece after piece her skin falls to the ground.

Slowly moving towards her head,
Getting slower with the cuts,
I started cutting off the skin from the cheek,
I kissed earlier,
Up up,
The knife goes up the side of her face,
Over her temples.

Finishing cutting her skin off,
I puncture every major vein in her body,
Sitting down in the chair,
I watch the blood drain from my masterpiece.

Feeling over joyed with my work,
I leave her there,
As her life drains away,
I carry on with my life,
Like nothing ever happened.

Jeff came over earlier it was kinda freaky i think kyla told him too..

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 09:59:25 GMT

So today Kyla and I went to see Lemony Snickets....blah blah blah anyway it was an ok movie nothing to be all omg god about but hey i don't know. So on a different note i was thinking about a guy today that ive know for a while and i'm all like ok lets post one of my poems i wrote when i was crushing on a guy a while ago. Oh well comment when you read....

I wonder

I wonder if you think of me,
I wonder if we meant something,
I wonder if you had feelings for me,
I wonder if you need me,
I wonder if you need my touch,
I wonder if you can go a day with out thinking of me,
I wonder what could have been,
I wonder why you do the things you do,
I wonder why I let you come back,
I wonder if I need you,
I wonder if you wonder.

Ugh Jordan and Richard

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 09:54:59 GMT

Haha So I was at Evans today with Kyla and on the was there we ran into Jordan whos Evans younger brother. Well Jordans acctually my age and Evans 19. We had an awsome time waking Evan up...(hes very bitchy in the mornings...well early afternoon)All day all weve been talking about is how jordan and richards date is going and how jordan was taking richard roughly from behind...haha i thought kylas egg nog was going to come out her nose is was sick. Not to mention egg nog is gross anyway. ok well ill post one of my poems that everyone says is so awsome...i dont quite understand why though......

Isolation

The boys are waiting,
Can’t go anymore,
spending to much time with them,
Can’t breath.

The girls are calling,
won’t answer the phone,
can’t trust then there evil,
Suffocation.

Got to get away,
there getting to close,
got nowhere to go,
Cornered.

I found a glass box,
they can still see me,
but they can no longer touch,
Isolation.

So I guess thats all for now mabey ill be one within the next couple of days.